The longer I stay home, the more I feel life will never resume in any way like that to which I used to be accustomed. I cannot imagine a world in which we gather together, hug friends and family, enjoy live arts events, theatre, music. How can we ever do these things again? How do we come out of this place in which we have been confined? I do not feel the constant despair that I did during the first few weeks of lock down yet I feel a numbness towards the future. It is a place for which I cannot make plans.